A Lost Star

No one is perfect, nor was she..She seemed like a peaced out, calm and a like a girl who was content with her life. BUT no. Things are way too different from what they seem from outside. Her name was Emily, also known as the nerd of the school. N-E-R-D ..When you hear this word, you picture a girl, with two neat plaits tied with satin ribons at the end, braces on her crooked teeth, brownish-black hair, not so cheer leader kind of body and not to forget, Big black glasses covering half of her face, yes. That was exactly how she was. Emily, an absolutely sweet girl, brilliant in academics and totally a champion! People seemed to envy her intelligence. She had always been a ranker in her school.

    Worst thing in her life was,

that she had no friends! not a single one. her two best friends left her a year ago. She was used to being alone. Well, no one deserves that, especially not a kind heartened fourteen year old like Emily. She never loosed hope though, she always tried to make new friends, but no one in her school befriended her, thinking she is outdated and boring. Firstly, everyone ignored her, and secondly they called her unsocial! SOCIETY. I tell you, you never please them! First seat in the class, in front of teacher's bench was reserved for her. 'Weird Nerd Emily'- were the words written on her desk. Bullying had been a part of her monotonous life. She was being called intolerable words everyday. NERD- because she was unbelievably smart. Weird- because she never talked to any guys. UGLY- because i guess no one had ever seen her mesmerising blue sparkling eyes as she hid them behind those big black glasses. No one cared how much their words hurt her. No one ever wondered why she always wore clothes which covered her full hands, guess why? ..She used to self harm, because she was tired of being insulted everyday. The scars of a sharp blade didn't hurt her as much as those bitter words did!

                                   

                                           

Her parents loved her the way she was. She always made them proud of her achievements.She was their only child. They left the house early in the morning and returned late at night as they worked in different cities! She was all the way by herself! Her father loved her the most, more than anyone could ever do. If only Emily's parents had time to listen to her problems and make her psychologically stable....

Many a times teens torture themselves as they find self hurting as an only solution to the daily problems in their lives, they should be given proper psychiatrist treatments before it gets too late! But sadly, it was already to late for Emily! She was wise enough to understand that self harming was a threat to her life, but she wasn't strong enough to fight against it. She was helpless and she was addicted to it. She was already under depression, but her fake smile never made her parents guess that! Everytime she had been called something bad. she used to make a cut in her hand. Yes. a fourteen year old was going through such things. An age where she was supposed to be happy and feel butterflies in her stomach, she felt the pain in her hand. 'EMILY IS A LOOSER. EMILY IS A CHEAT. EMILY IS AN UGLY UNSOCIAL NERD' these word always echoed inside her!

   What was her mistake? Just that she was way too nice? Just that she was smart ? Just that she never spoke up against the words used for her? Can you imagine, walking through the path on which Emily did? I so bet, you would have tripped and fell down at the very first step. Sadly, one day even she did.

    One morning in the school, Emily's name was announced and she was honoured with a medal and a certificate for winning an inter school brain wizard competition of math and science. She was actually used to these achievements. When she entered her classroom, Everyone started giggling at her.A boy stood up and said, "Look who won the medal again!". They all started shouting in unison,"Emily the weirdo nerd!! Emily the weirdo nerd!". People were so engrossed in making fun of her and bullying her, that no one noticed the tears streaming down her rosy cheeks. Those fourteen fifteen year old teens failed to realize that they were gradually killing her from inside. Her sufferings reached the limit. She was done with dealing with that shit everyday..She couldn't take it anymore! There wasn't even any place left on her hand for more cuts. She had been through too much. It was enough she thought... I wonder how she kept holding on for so long.     She took a health leave from the school and ran home running and crying all the way! She shut the house door and ran upstairs in her room. Her frustration level reached its apex. She took out a page from her diary and wrote something. She pulled out all the books from her shelf, her textbooks, her journals, her favourite novels, her math charts, the books she always enjoyed...everything ! she started tearing them off ...Her eyes turned red from crying ..She threw her glasses on the table..Her vision was very unclear then. LOOSER LOOSER LOOSER was all she could hear in her head! She remembered all the laughing faces from her school and neighbourhood, people whom she tried to be friends with, best friends who left her and was having a complete flashback of her whole miserable life. She opened her drawer and took out that same blade and cut deep inside her left hands nerve...I wish someone was there to stop her. I really wish! She fell unconsciously on the floor, being surrounded by blood on all the floor, torn book and her glasses which were into numerous small pieces. She lost her life to the world. She lost the struggle. She QUIT.

        

Her fight was over. who knew this would happen? Who knew this would be the consequence of ignorance and bullying? A note was found in her room which read-

      

'Whenever you will be reading this..I will be gone. I'm really sorry mom & dad, I couldn't live this life anymore. I'm just too done with this world. I'm done with being alone, having no friends and being tagged as a looser, ugly, weird and a pathetic nerd by everyone. Maybe I'm not good enough for this world, So i'm ending it all right now. I know i won't be forgiven for this mistake ever! JUST SORRY. Love you.  THIS LOSER FINALLY QUITS. goodbye. -EMILY'

     Things totally changed after her. No one was ever bullied in her school. the words 'Weird nerd Emily' were rubbed off from her desk, And that seat remained empty forever. Her parents are traumatised for life and her father went for rehabilitation. People who bullied her, who ignored her, now curse themselves for their misconduct with Emily. If only her teachers had realized her problems, if only her parents had taken out sometime from their busy schedule for her. things would have been totally different! She would have been alive. That star wouldn't have been lost.

     Many a times, we unknowingly hurt people, maybe you have never called anyone something bad, but you must have hurt someone with your rudeness or ignorance.  atleast once you would have ignored a person because you feel, they annoy you

? atleast once you would have hurt one of your friends? .If you see a person siting alone in your class, have you ever cared to go and have a conversation? most of you would have not bothered. Sometimes we get too busy with ourselves that we don't realize how much we are missing out on others. One thing, Just don't ever let a person be so lonely. Remember, Just a simple smile can make anyone's day and its absolutely free of cost.

    I want to end this up saying that STOP BULLYING. Spread this message and make this world a better place to live in.  Emily is gone from this world. People say she is the girl who killed 

herself. I prefer saying that she is the girl whom this world killed. Rest In Peace Emily. A Lost Star.. 

                                                                                           -Shivani Manek